Tomorrow she goes in for a PET scan. I have kept this quiet until now because the next two months are going to be very crucial for us. In case you are unfamiliar with what a pet scan is, it basically means that its an imaging system that uses a radioactive substance called a "tracer" to look for disease in the body. It will also show how her organs and the tissue in her body are doing as well.
Coming to the decision to have a PET scan wasn't made very lightly. I hate the fact that I have to expose her to more radiation treatment absolutely HATE it. I wish it wasn't necessary to do believe me. Her little body doesn't need any extra crap flowing through it let me tell ya, but unfortunately this course of action is needed to determine whether all the toxins she has been exposed to have been working in her favor and killing off all the cancer cells and not forming any new ones.
Remember, we still don't know what the growth forming in her face is and the MRI will not pick up on it either. The only positive to this is that thankfully nothing has shown up on the exterior of her face to cause an immediate worry like it did back in April with the mass bulging out of her neck.
I still try to remain very hopeful that something is working in her favor, but until I hear of the results I take everything with a grain of salt because there's the 50/50 that all could come back clear or come back that she has developed a new cancer. While obviously I want it to be clear, I also don't want to be crushed with bad news either.
Arley is also scheduled to have another MRI next month plus she is scheduled for surgery. Both of which should still happen regardless of the outcome from the PET scan. So as you can see March is going to be a very make or break month for the both of us. I'm hoping upon hope that with Spring slowly approaching that it will mean great things for us. After Winter and things dying off a newness approaches and blossoms before our eyes into a magnificent beauty and that's my wish for the upcoming month. That all the toxins will release themselves from Arley's body and that we can move on and try to have a more normal life...
One more carefree and without so much worry. One where she can go out and play and I don't have to be so overly concerned with what she may catch from people she interacts with. Where hopefully she can start preschool and be the typical 3.5 year old that she is. A normal life where perhaps I can finally breathe and stop holding my breath with every passing day and maybe perhaps release all this heavy weight that has been holding me down both literally and figuratively. Be able to feel less stress than I do these days. It's getting better for sure slowly, but it's all still there at the end of the day.
I have also been thinking long and hard about taking a little road trip with Arley, not sure if I mentioned it previously when thinking up a little bucket list full of adventure, but I really think that it would be beneficial for us to do because the winter has been so depressing with all the mountains of snow we have accumulated over the past month and a half. Be able to actually go out and smell the roses too!
Anyway, that's about it for right now. I will have lots of updates coming over the next several weeks so you will be reading a lot more about what's happening in our lives which I guess is pretty exciting since the winter has proved to have nothing spectacular to share.
Until next time friends.......
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